Well I have not posted for a long time.... From the last time I have posted it will seem that nothing has changed at all ....

I got me a new car I can't believe I got it ... It is so so cute....  It is a Kea..

I found someone that will zap my air in my car for free all I have to do is get the stuff.... Go me!!! Come Aug I will have air in my car hehe... And I am almost done with backing oohooh ...

I hope you have a very happy birthday..

Edee

I think the best thing about taxes that is if you can get money back is the money ... Now I can get a washer and dryer hehehe can't wait .......

Went shopping with Cat  today had a great time doing that .... But i was really really good for 3 months so i really was good .... If I dont watch it i think i can buy out the hole store that is if i had the money ..... Have a great weekend

Hello all I hope that everyone has a great x-mas and and great new year.... Well for my top 10 wish list here goes



1. sleep
2 sleep
3. sleep
4. sleep
5. sleep.
6. to have a great time with the kids
7. sleep
8 sleep
9. to not be in pain
10. to see everyone happy

You all have a great time ...

I hope everyone has had a great day .... My started good then I went out side what a ride lol .... I got  to see 5 suv do donuts on wallnutlown and golden lol ,but they did not go  in the ditch ...Got to work about 7 min late but that was ok my driver was 10 mins late hehe... Got a call from Bonnie and sissy was sick so I took the reast of the day off to baby her she is good but will stay home on tuesday to make sure .... i will be going to work .... all and all it was a good day ....I hope you  all have a great day tomorrow i know i will try to ...

Pain is not good I run from it every chance i get..... I hate seeing people in pain I hate being the one that causes the pain, I will be the first person to say yes just so I would not hurt anyone even when it is not a good thing to do I will do it anyway just to keep people happy.....Cat and me talked for 4 hours last night and it was the best thing that we have done since this hole mess started. We got alot of the hurt and missunderstanding out it was great...Just to know that everyone does not think that i am a joke is great.... I dont let alot of peolpe in my little walls very easyly and when i do it is with my hole hart and soul...This hole thing has been a learning point for me , yes it is good to let people in but not as close as i have been in the last past 9 years ......I just dont want any more he said she said..... I moved out to get rid of all the choic behind and to be pooled in to it hook line and sinker was very bad on my part......I just hope that when i seem alittle distint it is not that i am not being friendly it is just that i dont want to be hook in anyone mess I have my own faimly to think of and that is what i am going to start doing no one will come first but my kid and me ........................


I hope this finds every one in alittle better mood and space.... I know i am ....... Talking is good

I have known this person for almost 15 year and to think that she thought that I could possibly enjoy seeing some one in pain or mad.... I have never been so hurt in my life not even when my daddy passed away have I been this hurt.... I have never liked seeing people hurt or mad I go out of my way to not fight or to hurt someone.... Why would she think that i was having fun seeing some one hurt and mad...It broke my hart to see someone that i caried about in that much pain and there was nothing that i could do or say to make her feel better,,,,, and to think someone thought that i was having fun .... I truly thought that most of you guys know me, well  i guess not .....


Bye have a good year....

Gee i am so glad that i was able to bend over back words to help someone that i thought that needed it ....... yes i know she still does put it just really hurts that when you do help people and help and help it is the other person that gets the thanks and me the gets blamed and than i am not need or what ever.... I have benn reading what everyone as been posting and the only time i was even thought of was when Colleen said she yelled at me...... Every one forgets that i had cancer exeped Colleen my daughter was not even 1 yet i was told that i had cancer and a week latter i was in the hospital for a week had the turmer taken out the i coded .... I got out for just a week then had to go back in and had to have my thryoid taken out i was in there for anther week... for sissy first year i was in and out of the damn place did not get to know my new born baby till she was 2 years old my mother and sisster had to raise her till then ... that was my year from hell ..... I went throw the year trying to help someone that i truly and really thought that need some help I would go there every free time i had to help her and just be there to talk to her and even when i did not have the money to do this also had to get Bonnie and my mother to watch the kids becouse bubby can not be around cigs smoke .... I did all of this with my hole hart then to trun around and the only person to call me and tell me that she was going to the hospital to 96 her and not tell me why .... then to trun around and find out becouse i kept calling cats phone over and over again and she tells me that all she said to me was a lie .. then go to cats house and have Colleen to say that she dont need me , then have cat tell mee to leave and have no one call me and tell me what was going wrong what do you all think of me to not tell me NOTHING . how i am to feel....... well this is how i fucking feel like a fucking joke  BUT NO NO NO MORE.....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11



 THANK YOU ALL .................................

Happy B-day

Well I took the day off to just take off.... I let William stay home and gave  a chose to stay home or go to school she wanted to go to school .... I got her off to school then fixed William something to eat then went back to bed got up at noon tried to get lunch going and tried to cut my finger off ...  hehehehe.... It took 2 hours for it to stop bleeding then got lunch done then went back to bed ... Got up at 4 and got dinndinn done... that was my day hehehe... All and all it was a great day I love days like this  even trying to cut my finger off.....hehehe

Hello all I have been reminded why I  moved out of my mothers house oh boy do I remember why I moved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell how my evening is going............. spent the day at work and at Colleens today that was good always love seeing colleen and callie. Then I want to my mothers to get Victoria she was at my mothers so she could take her to school....I wil be going to pick up Bonnie and Steve from the airport about 9 to night .....Gee i think this was the most I have ever posted  watch me go lol ....She has been yelling at me from the moment i walked in the door, and i even got her supper gee what love..... She even told William that she did not like him ,,,,,, Fuck me how in the hell did i come out like i am..... You would think I would hate everyone shit a duck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 You never tell a child that you dont like them i dont care if you want to kill the little fucker you do not not not tell them that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1I got one more hour then i cam leave this place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so my day was not has bad as I thought it would be..Yes I still got up at 3 AM  that sucked but hey the car is one hell of a ride.... hehehe....  William ended getting sick about 11 AM today so I called in at work to  go get William  from school...So I only had to work 3 hours today and got to spend 2 hours with Colleen Cat and Callie today... that was the best part of the day ... Oh and I got to tell a suck up ass hole to make love not war hehehe I loved that part...... So yes my day was better the yesterday..... 

Have a very happy Halloween.........

Ok I was told to post more so here goes it ....


Roses are red and violets are blue and my day was shitty and tomorrow does not look good have to be up at 3am, but I get to drive a kick ass car hehe........ Peace everyone....

Hello all my house is open to company.. So all that know me is more then welcome to come and have fun and bitch or talk... I really love my place....The kids really love it also.. William as been so great he loves going to school now that is my fav. part and sis is so happy she is driving me up the wall.... I really do love my kids very much ....

You all have a great weekend and a happy loved filled night...  blessings to all...